Tipie toes

Tippie toeing on your behalf

That's how I feel 

I can't continue doing this if anything let it go

Have fun

Take your chance I did but don't underestimate her she has more to offer then you think

You believe she doesn't know what she wants in life

And to say she has issues but to not be able to prove them as you said she has issues in plural 

She has her hopes up that it won't end soon, as if it does that would be because of your decision not hers

She decided to stay after knowing your other side 

You do not trust her, that's your issue

Someone hurt you so bad that you have forgotten how to trust

Understandable to her because you have taught her how to trust once again 

She trusts you, she has been alone all her life and you come in she has taken it pretty good for being the first

Shhhh...

They know but will not let her know

I have you, this inside can break us apart 

It seems I want to hurt you but I rather not tell you for it seems I want you to hurt more....

You seem like the type that gets attached too fast 

As you don't know me. I can't change I won't change maybe I can but I dnt want to and because it's what I've learned

What hurt is 

Me: to say I care is not the same as to like or love

I like you love you I doubt

Yes doubt you are not into actually being an us

Appears to be just buddies with special something I done that if we are that tell me I can't put up with that anymore

To think it might be a good thing to start off with someone I enjoy being with but no 

As days go by it seems we are less and less interested in each other

Less communication, more struggle

As we converse it appears to be drifting us apart...

I enjoy can't conversing as much as playing yet my mind seems to loose it as you throw your logic in it

Mature you are

No more games

Come clean

If you want something serious show it if you don't tell me so I won't have to go through the struggle of..... 

Can't ever go through that again I will not go through that again,

I know if I say goodbye you will too as I would prefer to end it but I want to see the outcome

And to say to be scared of being hurt, hun we are all scared of being hurt

To say meeting my parents was not a serious thing just says a lot... 

Maybe your right

Maybe I'm not mature enough or is it the other way around

Since you do seem to be playing a game, reality check it is time to not play

Looking for real honest guy not a boy 

Sun. Nov. 16,2014 at 10:08

Him: hey

Me: aye wats up?

Him: sorry to ask for your number I just don't like using the app

Me: don't worry I don't really like it either never on there much....

Those first days were so wonderful

To know that you were going to want something serious and for a long time after you got to know me 

Now it's all different, i don't knownifnits me or if it's you

I really did not notice the change in our conversations after we met,

Maybe because we new it was going to take a turn backwards, 

I know what is going on, it has happened before already I just didn't know it was going to happen so soon

You said you it was going to be a long time we were going to be together yet idk if those "long time" would work for me

As I see it not the same as when we didn't know each other

Now I'm in doubt, you present me to your Kim as your girlfriend after knowing each other for 2 weeks only, I have no idea if it's a good thing for we do not have the conversations as we had before the days pass and I still think positively on us, I hope we don't split any time soon as I am happy and am trying my best to stay focus and not have in mind what other have rumored of you already. Or what those that I had explained my situation to have put in my mind, I think best thig is to come clean and you said you would break up through the phone, one thing I thought you wanted me to say when I told you I had something to ask you to "see if we were doing good?" I have to know if you do not want to keep talking to me just let me know I don't want to keep waiting my time and have my hopes up on something I know I can't have with you, if that is the case I would go back to my old living style, thankfully you will never know how I used to live my life before for you have secrets I too have secrets I am not willing to tell you 

The only thing I poured out to you was that I have never been in any serious relationship and to be patient with me for I have to learn how to manage certain situations but if you have patience I know I will learn to be in a good relationship 

If we are not going to work out we will see as time brought us together and if we work then we do but at this point I am getting preparing myself for the worst....

Inked: ♊️

I know im shy, i know im shy

All my life ive been shy, to start looking into my zodiac: life changing

I never understood when younger what it would mean with being communicative but only to be able to adapt to situations.

In high school It was a bit more clear for the concept of being communicative, somewhat, after high school It was all clear to me 

Finally realizing i am indeed communicative, in different ways, and different areas. 

Now the ink I have on my right wrist is just too perfect it defines what I truly am and who I truly am and will continue being....

Poem lost out loud

Tis the light of day brighten your day

Tis the shadows of darkness harass your nights tis was all a joke not to mention your dislikes and likes

Tis forshadow follow the system of living how so shall we live a life of brightness without the spirit of tame fulness happy alive to say i love you and to show how much you dislike me beside you shall already know how tis light of mine brings back memories and there you are standing with a king posture and i dislike you now, shivers my body with night light to say i am no longer part of your world, tis love hard to understand as this poem is to write,,, manage to succeed and harness new ways of speech and to say i miss you and say no more it is the end for both 

Scars

The scars i carry are for you

This writing I've done is all for you

Dispite the abandonment despite the hurt 

Somehow i still see you there

Close my eyes erase the memories in the phone

No more i say i let go

I shall be strong for all of me 

Still you are here, my shadow my past my nothing

I want you back but no more 

I shall believe i shall be dull and be forgetting is it i need someone new? It was one and only no one knows why i came to you, confusion in my mind i shall say no but yet i was standing once again in front of you, i said no but you said come on ,, my mind pleasured itself with the thought of us when in reality you are no longer there are u there no i was lost all along and have change of course not I'm the same as i was when i met you, place a happy ending but here different rules, no happiness is left from your memory i shall be happy realizing you are a playful soul to all female and i was not the only one, i reject memories and thoughts and feelings, happiness might happen one day and shall i discover happiness with out you one day it will for sure happen.

Fun and games

Talk a lot till dawn 

Night and day and dawn 

No return to previous conversations

Have to make up stories to entertain you

No one knows why but I just need to entertain you have gain enough knowledge of you to catch your attention and know how to say enough 

I want you to know I enjoy you and have you fall but I fall not

It's all fun and games to me oh yes 

It's all fun and games,

Do not hesitate and try to understand

It's not to your knowledge to be playful mr I am mature enough i take everything serious and want everything to be serious 

I still do not believe you though, enough said i still do not believe you for your lies have darkened my soul and thoughts

Now it's just me with my fun and games

My fun fun games. 

The only day I saw you.

You asked if i skate,

I said no, for i have no interest in learning either 

To remember you as you look

Your image, your smile, your touch, 

It's all you, your magic complies with my emotion

The reason i think too much, I hope time doesn't change you, 

Such an amazing person, your charms, romanticism is your passion, I just hope time doesn't change you for bad, 

It's all in my head, that image, that day we met, still in my presence, you stole my soul with out me noticing

I thought I loved you for that one day, trine went by and boredom strikes like lightning rotting conversations as we don't know each other. 

It's ok dear it's all over know, move on with out lives one step at a time.

Begs again.

I laugh

For your return

Taunting me to get me back

I wont fall, not this time

U are tempting yet i shall and will resist

No matter how much you insist i will refuse 

I hope you tire yourself of begging  and forget the i am here 

I don't want you to look for me nor messege me nor go to my job because you are in so much need of it

I am done doing you, its time for me to recognize I have to leave you behind.