I am free🐥

Yes I have a boyfriend

Though doesn't mean I can't have fun,

Yea I love having fun, the right kind of fun

I can dress any way I want, do anything I want and still respect your position

I can dress all hoochie and still have self repeat because I respect others and appearance doesn't matter to me you know it

I don't ever play with people's feelings for I am to respect your feelings as you respect mine, I miss you a lot yes I do and I hate it but I love it. 

Can be an inspiration at times for I am into you, I care about you it's not all about the way I feel I want to know how you are 

Fact that I don't trust you and you expect me not to gets my mind going, but then again I've learned now how to control my emotions about how I feel about you yes sometimes I feel as if I am single but then again I know that by this acts it will prevent me from falling more into you,

I could ask why are you so mean or you to me and I would respond "because the best way to not get your heart broken is to pretend you don't have one" and I get it know. 

The reason I have fun and deserve to have fun because there is nothing that ties me up to you, I am not married with you therefore I can do anything I want but not mess around with your feelings nor play games, I ain't trying to play a game that deals with different people at once it ain't for me so if anything ✌🏼️

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Hey it's been a while, and so much has happened since then

1. It's gone the happiness I once had for you its all gone

2. It's gone no longer living inside of me you are gone

3. I still believe in getting stronger and that one day you will be back with a stronger body,

4. I will be waiting for you

5. He came back sounding rediculous, asking for things I couldn't give him

Asking to get back with him as if he didn't know what I was in already, he said he would change but once a person is doing there thing they will never change

6. I came to a point where I didn't even care that one time he said it with so much joy

7. I started asking myself if I am in a good position to continue with what I have, or should I let it go since it seems to not bother you at all

8. It comes to mind I have too much to ask and give

9. Maybe I am too nice to even realize what is really going on. 

10. I happen to know I do feel for you and that's the reason why I don't give up,

11. I'm at a point were realizing we do everything you want and never what I want, that it's always a you day.

Oh baby

Inside you might be

You have no fault, sorry for I have failed as a parent I see now to be wiser

And to be a stronger person for you

Listen as i commence to communicate with you through thoughts 

I will love you, you are mine

As if your father is not here I am and will always be here

He might want me to call him that is a very powerful challenge yet I hope to be strong with the help of what he seems to not have family

My mom and dad and sister, will love you not as much as me but will truely take you in for you will be my light at the end of the tunnel every time I come home tired, you will be my everything

It's sad to see you go through this and knowing that your father is out there doing the same thing to probably other girls, I believed him baby but his challenge of saying I wil need him is very tempting

Sorry if I am to not call him but he decided to go, baby I miss him more because I new him, you might understand one day, I hope I am an example of what you are to be except the dumb part of getting with a guy that already has responsibilities, never go with them unless they are willing to leave some of them for you.